A New Way of Thinking

   I should say that one the things, or aspects, of Corrigans class that I find most humbling is what dialog that we share in class. After reading and blogging about his essay on darkness, hope and other such things I found that class discussion was some what robust. The room was filled with questions and most did not have answers. Which is fitting since the essay talked about how the questions that we so often look for are the ones that we know we either have the answer to or the ones that we can find an answer to. Nothing is as it seems. And it's funny, I always thought of myself more as a writer then as a reader. But the last year or so, and especially after being introduced to Prof. Corrigans class, I feel an urgency to read more then write.

  This last discussion we had in class reminded me of something I wrote last semester. Something in my journal...

"All the mourning that you're doing tonight, in the morning will just turn into might, give you strength to fight, lace 'em up strap your armor on tight, don't you settle for wrong when you know that your right, my eternal God, my refuge and my strength, I pray that you would guide me within every step I take, no mistakes, cause me to break, and above all else I pray you keep me safe, as the earth quakes, 'cause everyday ain't the same, some are filled with guilt and shame, and then there's those days you gotta call on the name, 'cause what can you do when you greatest fears come true, it's at that point you realize your strength is not from you, it's not your own, not until you seek the throne, your not accident prone, you're attack prone, susceptible to the evil one, the master of deception, make you believe in lies like you're not good enough, make you think that you're not tough enough, like you ain't got the stuff it takes, to fight for your life and other lives at stake..."

   Nothing is as it seems, Sometimes, it's a constant battle, the classic epic fight of good versus evil, light versus the darkness. It's got me thinking about the Yupik (Native Alaskan Tribe) story. Inside everyman lives two wolves, a Great White Wolf and a Blood Thirsty Grey Wolf. The wolf that lives is the wolf you feed the most. Which wolf are you feeding?