“The Yellow Wallpaper”; it was hard to get into at first, but as the story progressed as did I ease into the story. Having read it to its completion I found nothing very interpretive about it until the end. Much like “The Open Boat” everything built up but had a meaning and a purpose unknown to me until the end of story.
The main character, who I would presume to be the author, Charlotte Gilman, is struck with a mild case of deliria it seems and does not know exactly what she wants or needs, but from what her doctor husband tells her. They have moved out to an old house away from the city for the summer to help her condition. Throughout the story she is doing things that she has been advised not to do, but is never caught doing. Noticing this strangely yellow wall paper in one of the rooms of the house they are staying in.
“The color is repellent, almost revolting; a smouldering unclean yellow, strangely faded by the slow-turning sunlight.
It is a dull yet lurid orange in some places, a sickly sulphur tint in others.”
It is a dull yet lurid orange in some places, a sickly sulphur tint in others.”
Throughout the progress of the story she is openly moved from repulsiveness to mystery. As she sits and waits at night staring at this unseemly wallpaper she sees what she believes to be a shadow of a woman behind the first layer of wallpaper as if she is trapped, imprisoned.
Jumping to the last three or four paragraphs of the story; she is now ripping the wallpaper of methodically trying to rip off as big a piece at a time. She becomes obsessed by her fascination to rip this wallpaper off this nursery wall. Trying to free this poor woman trapped behind this wallpaper.
Finally she succeeds. Only to find that instead of getting better she has actually gotten worse. She has obsessed over this woman so long that she has, in her mind, become this women, and her doctor husband and his sister were the ones keeping her trapped behind that wall paper, which is why she tore most of it off the wall.
We are trapped. Hiding behind the walls of our own “innocence”; trying to be people that we are not. Attempting to become something we were never destined to be. We hide because we are unsure of what the rest of the world, our friends, our families, might think of us. We hide behind our traditions and our rituals. We hide behind our insecurities and failures.
We tell our selves that we’re going to free that woman, that man, behind the wall paper. That when we have kids we’re going to treat them differently. We’re going to raise them differently. That when we grow up we’re going to be a better man then our fathers were, a better woman then our mothers were.
It matters because it’s a problem and so few of us actually succeed in freeing that imprisoned soul behind that nasty yellow wallpaper. It matters because when we finally figure out how to accurately free that scared child, that timid impression of ourselves; it may almost be too late.
And until we do we will always find ourselves in the same place we ran away to hide; in the shadows. Sometimes we need a place of seclusion that will bring out the worst in us so that we can find the best we can be.